Here are some pictures from my week...
All Brooklyn's eggs looked like rocks for some reason. How does one even manage to make gray Easter eggs???
Baseball, baseball, and more baseball
hockey, hockey, and more hockey
I took Lexi out of school Thursday morning to meet Miranda Cosgrove (more on that to come). She was insanely excited! A million thanks go to my friends, Ginny, Ellen and Doreen for helping me out sooo much! I couldn't have gotten Lexi downtown without all of you guys and your willingness to help me out big time! Thank you!
I went to court yesterday for a pre-trial conference concerning my divorce. It went very much in my favor with the judge saying that the kids and I could stay in the house. It looks like the divorce will be final on May 4th. It's sad because I never imagined my life would turn out like this. I don't think anyone goes into marriage, thinking, Oh well, if it doesn't work out, we'll just get divorced. Actually, some people probably do have that attitude. But most of us think that things will last forever. And once kids are thrown into the mix, we do everything we can to make it work. We try for years. We put up with more than we probably should "for the kids' sake". But sometimes, there comes a point when we realize that staying together "for the kids" is not really the best thing for the kids. In the best cases, both parents put their own feelings aside for the best interest of the children. They cooperate for their sake. They work together to make sure the kids know that none of it is their fault. They bite their tongues and keep their negative thoughts about each other to themselves. They both spend as much time as possible with the kids and do everything in their power to ensure them that they are very much loved and cherished and that will never change.
That's not my case. I don't know if Joe is trying to punish me. I don't know if he's just having a hard time separating his feelings for me from those for the kids. I have no idea what on earth is going through his head. I do know that he loves the kids and used to be a hands-on dad. He used to spend time with them, take them for bike rides, play catch with them, help them with homework. Unfortunately, he's cut himself off from them and hasn't spent time with them for 3 1/2 months. He changed his cell phone number so we can't call him. He told his lawyer that he doesn't want joint custody and doesn't want visitation. My heart breaks for my kids and I work overtime making sure they know that it's not their fault and that their dad loves them. That's all I can do.
I'm not writing this to bash Joe. Like I said, I don't know what his problem is and why he's making the choices he is. I mostly feel sorry for him. I'm not going into all the details of the divorce and things he's said or done. Just letting you know what is going on and why I don't keep up with my blog as much as before. I'm just kinda busy these days.