Remember when I wrote that I had to learn to stop saying that things couldn't get any worse? Yeah. Well, whether you say it or not, things can get worse. My wonderful ex-husband texted me today to tell me he'd gotten fired. When I asked him why he'd gotten fired and if he was eligible for unemployment, he told me it didn't concern me. He is actually stupid enough to think it doesn't concern me! I wish I could've reached through the phone and slapped his SELFISH face.
Yep. Now, my kids don't have insurance. In the middle of getting help for their depression and abandonment issues, they've lost insurance. As of now, my income is $0 a month. I don't even know what kind of job I could possibly get with no college degree and being out of the work force for 16 years, and with the economy and unemployment rates right now, and the fact that anything I'd make would have to go to childcare for Brooklyn, not to mention the fact that it wouldn't be safe for me to leave my boys alone right now.
So, because my blog doesn't make me a penny, I need to take a break from it for awhile to figure out what I need to do to keep us afloat. I need to look into state insurance and other help, and find a way to get some sort of job.
Not that this makes much of a difference at this point, but here's a link to Amazon again in case anyone has $10 to spare on a great, funny, lighthearted look at pregnancy and childbirth. (You'll like the book, really!) You'll Lose the Baby Weight (and Other Lies About Pregnancy and Childbirth).
And believe it or not, I still have absolute faith that things will work out. I believe God isn't so involved in more important things that He just doesn't have the time to deal with small potatoes like this. Quite the opposite. I believe He's here. He's right here. I know He is. And He'll use this for good. That's not to say that I don't feel like breaking down and crying because I do. But if I break down, guess what - the problems will still be there. It won't solve anything. It won't fix the situation. So, I'll keep on believing and trusting that God has a plan and He knows what He's doing. And I'll do whatever I can to get my kids healthy and make enough money to support us. And I'll ask you guys to keep praying because honestly, that's what's keeping me sane right now. Thank you.