"Dawn, you're so strong." You wanna know how strong I am? I broke down in front of my kids and cried the whole way home from my sister's house tonight. One hour of nonstop bawling in the car. You know why? Because I can't do anything right. I let people down every day. Every damn day! I drop the ball again and again and again. I disappoint people who count on me, trust me, love me. I feel like the world's biggest failure. And no matter how hard I try, I just can't get it right. Ha! Real strong, huh?
And you know what? I hate Joe. I hate him for making me feel fat and ugly and not worth the truth. And I hate myself even more for letting him make me feel worthless. No matter how strong I might seem on the outside; no matter how well I hold it together and go about my day with a smile on my face and a sense of humor intact, inside I'm very broken.
And I always will be.